Life is hard sometimes, at times it feels like a punch in face or a kick in the gut and even at worst a huge pit of crap that you can't climb out of. You never plan what will happen in the next minutes and especially the next days or week and you can't touch years from now. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TOMORROW WILL LOOK LIKE, WHERE I WILL BE IN A WEEK OR A MONTH AND DEF CAN'T TELL YOU WHERE I'LL BE AFTER GRADUATION THIS YEAR. I can tell you that I'm am scared to death yet really excited, I am fearful, but have a bliss feeling as well, I am confused yet have ideas and I am shocked yet happy to be moving on.
When life seems to be looking up and you start to take your eyes off of Him again you may begin to sink and I think that is where I am today. Sinking....
I could be daily sinking in His love, His safety, His kindness, His hand that will never let me go, but I looked away for just a second and I feel as though the Lord is trying to remind me that I need Him. I wish I would remember that every day when I wake up and roll out of bed... Lord I need you. I wish I could say at least I am thankful for my first morning breath but I complain that I have to get up and I don't appreciate all the Lord has done for me as I stumble to the bathroom to brush my teeth or take a shower. I wish I would remember that I need the Lord as I come in contact with each person I meet or when I go to a place I have never been before, but instead I say in my own strenght I can do this..... Lord I need you.
So without relying on the Lord this is where I have gotten........ No where, two step forward ten steps back. A running leap to bounce off the wall back to the same spot. My eyes fixed on the worldly prize instead of heavens gates. Where is the glory for the father in that? I feel as of now the Lord has taken me out of the place where I feel like everything is going to be ok again to stick me in panic mode not so I will hurt but so I will say Lord I need you. LORD I NEED you More and More and MORE. Today, tomorrow and everyday after that. So Jen what are you going to do with that?
I am running to my Fathers arms fast and in a hurry. PRAYING that the Lord be the only thing I depend on. All my troubles, all my hurts, all my hope and dreams will be talked about with the Lord. I want to be a women of God wakes up in the morning to spend time in the WORD and fall in love over and over again. I just need you Lord nothing else and no one else.
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